20060628
LoL block test one by one gonna be over soon haha... can't believe i am taking it so easily...i am gonna fail everything the way it goes... but nvm ...track first priority now... I just hope that i will be able to get back on track right after nationals...yea...i hope. (:
"each day is gonna be better den before
Defeat yourself yong, yourself....
posted @ 8:51 PM
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20060623
Haven felt as screwed as this b4... its totally fucked up.
Before Hols it was said that all competitive trackers would have a choice to take the block test with half the weightage or even skip the block test. And now the fucking school told us that the principal rejected the proposal... when did they inform us? todae, fucking today... and what am i supposed to do now? mug the whole freaking syllabus in less den 3 daes? Screw off ang, not everione is as mug as u were in ur secondary and JC days... bastard.
And how great it is to pull my upper thigh muscle today... ...
..... !%$#
posted @ 10:22 PM
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20060621
time indeed is running short.. 5 more days to block test and
17 more days to national will i hit my target or not? (apparently i have hecked my block test until its too late to do much now)
I have obviously been overtraining for the past few weeks to pay up for the period of time that i have been resting due to the injuries. As for now, I am really happy and fortunate that i have not hurt myself despite the intensity of my training...
Adversity causes some men to break -> others to break records <-Bloody Inspiring quote i love it... (:
posted @ 9:53 PM
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20060620
I am beginning to feel the passion for throwing again, though not as much as what I felt for it in sec 2, haha...
Fighting and competiting for something important that i enjoy the greatest motivation.
I just love it in competitions when everything stops once you step into the pit.
The surrounding air turns still and silence begin to linger in the air as the competitors and crowd hold their breaths, hoping to see a good throw from this yellow and red horizontally challenged kid among all the other competitors.
He blasts across the ring at top speed and shouts like a madman at the final release. If it was a magnificent throw, everyone would clap and he would just walk out of the pit with a gentle smile on his face.
If it was a screwed up one (which do happen sometimes) I'll just mutter a few words such as pang sai followed by some laughter among the competitors.lol
Those are pretty much observations from those who have competed with me, and i find it rather interesting though.
posted @ 11:19 AM
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20060619
mission accomplished, its a small one though. the big one is right ahead in 3 weeks time
Today was a pretty good day for throwing.. (:
Hyped myself into the crazy state and just bruted and shouted like a madman haha... well but technique was anihow, could have been better though.
Got 1st and broke the record for the comp on the 5.2 haha. 15.9m
up next nationals: target 16.08m national record
Nono 16.50m i shall set another ridiculous goals :D
Block test... is gone case! GONE CASE... i cant even sit down and study... :( i hope siva doesnt call my parents...
Limits? when did they ever exist?
(sorry self-psychoing in progress my apologies for all the weird posts these daes and the next few posts :p)
posted @ 12:50 AM
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20060617
Hey guys (:
Its been a while since i posted an entry sorry for that, really busy for the past few weeks ... haha...
Well for the past few weeks i have been trying really hard to prepare for my nationals... a lot is actually on mental preparations as i am really unable to ttrain too hard physically if not i will surely injure myself haha... But the bad thing is I keep thinking so much abt it that its almost impossible for me to sit down and study...sounds pretty bad yea? yes it is, not even 5% of block test studying was done... I just hope Siva wunt call my parents and complain abt it... if not i will really be in deep shit.
Anyway, having a competition tomorrow, not in very good form but i will do my best haha... but anyway its not the most important comp.
Nationals to me is seriously the bomb... the competition where no mistakes must be made, no room for any slips or whatsoever... Its weird that I feel that it is of a greater importance even compared to the international competitions, because of expectations? maybe ? lol.
Yep anyway... perhaps i shall just share my target for nationals with my readers haha... as I remembered some guy from the CIP camp saying that you will have a higher possibility of attaining ur goal if u share it with others...
OKay here it goes!
Being a super ambitious freak, and being one who believes in setting ridiculous goals:
I am aiming for National 1st + National record + ASEAN silver
Though its really quite impossible to break that record in J1 and in my current state... i guess i shall just aim for the stars and maybe i will still land on the moon, maybe.. haha..yup. This is my last yr in throwing... so i really hope to end this chapter of my life with a beautiful fulls stop. lol.
Go Yong! u can do it! okay i am zi yan zi yuing haha
Once again a really big thank you to all those who have been supporting me as i went thru the ups and downs... the encouraging smses, tags and messages...Means a lot to me yep
Aniwae some tag replies:
Yuntian: thanks for that short and impactful phrases really lighted a bulb in my head..haha
Steffi: haha yo mug :P training is taking up my whole life ah... i hope i will be able to pick up after block test, if not donate me half of ur brain ler. lol
All the best for tomorrow's comp yong,
All the best for nationals yong,
haha talking to myself again. lol
posted @ 11:23 PM
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20060605
just wanna say thanks for the encouragement from all my friends esp during the screwed up times of my life... yep.. it means a quite a lot to me.
I will be stronger from now on...
posted @ 11:03 PM
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20060602
was life really never meant to be easy...
I Haven felt so screwed up for a very long time...
Every shit is freaking affecting my training..... i cannot do stuff that my teammates do, i can't even run, jump or do a push-up pain free, and yet nationals is drawing near?
I was resting for the past few months, training very very lightly and carefully, hoping that everything would at least go smoothly the month before nationals. To my horror no... no...
The pressure that everyone is giving me to perform well this nationals is just too great for me to handle, and the pressure which i give myself? its 10 times more...
Each time I will myself to get up on my feet... i fall again
...and again
...and again
Just like a caged beast... i wanna work for it... i wanna fight for it...
But i do not have the ability to do it now... and its painful...
Freaking hell of a pain...
posted @ 11:01 PM
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